Where I am right now

Why is it that the thought of clicking a stupid button on myspace makes me sick? Maybe because the process is so emotionaless.

I guess you understand.

And I don't even know if there's any point in writing right now because there is not much that I can type that would properly convey everything.

But .. I can say that no matter what, I am in still in awe of every moment, every everything that made me feel so alive and happy. And I have to honor those moments by cherishing/remembering them. There is the initial impulse to make myself numb, but that would be of no use; cheating myself out of loving/learning from/appreciating an amazing part of my life.