Sitting on the veranda outside the computer room... Green is everywhere, birds are
everywhere, and so is the sense of calm that seeps out of every crack in the
pavement/walls or petal and leaf of each plant. I have to leave tomorrow, Mia. I have to
leave tomorrow at ten o'clock at night, drive into Bangalore one last time - bracing
myself against the bumpy roads that my body is so used to now, just settling into the
rhythmic jostling back and forth.

I need to see you when I get back.

Sorry I have not written recently.

Love,
Kate


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I have to leave tomorrow. There's no choice or decision making .. no prolonging my stay. I have to leave. At ten p.m. Ten p.m. tomorrow .. a little more than 24 hours.

The screen is coming in and out of focus as I type.

I don't know why anything is important. I know that everything is important.

and what's racing through my mind and pulsing through my veins was unimaginable four months ago. It's so beautiful that it takes my breath away. I am lucky to be feeling this. I am only this sad because I have been touched and affected so deeply.

I am so thankful you'll be waiting there with a hug right now-

Kate



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I don't know what I'm trying to get across here, or if there's any point. I'm just going to keep trying.. because right now it's overflowing.. a myriad and there is no way I can verbalize it so that it is one containable thing and that makes it stunning. that makes it Life. And I am so appreciative. It's easy to overflow here, but I cannot let it stick to my insides when I get home.

So, I'll keep trying.

ab·re·act: To release (repressed emotions) by acting out, as in words, behavior, or the imagination