I am a drinker of wine, an addict to love, a spirit of earth, a conductor of electric nights.
I could not love you more, i could not feel you more intensely than I do now, with your eyes open, bearing into mine,. as you say "Hi, Hello, How are you".. your hand pressed against the side of my face; make me feel warm .. eyeballs rolling into the backs of head, necks snapping back, hips moving methodically..

I feel you now... I can hear you always.. I see your face coming closer to mine and I arch my back a little and tilt my little face to yours so that they might meet in the middle.

My brain is swollen, it feels, and the corners of my mouth turned upwards. tonight i got to look at you from across the room and I loved you as if I had just seen you. My eyes worked their way down and around your body.. studying your form and posture and they liked what they saw.
Pleased, I walked over to you and took liberties that I would not have taken if I did not know you. Sit on your lap, touch your cheeks .. I am there, on top of you, next to you, breathing softly into your ear as I talk to you... and we smile and we laugh as no other makes us laugh.

And here you lie.. in my bed ... in my warm bed made warm by our bodies laying in it ... I can turn around and look at your form, your lines of curves and bends of bones. .. beautiful. Your are beautiful and worth all of my attention and every second I devote my thoughts to you. How can I say "I love you" any more clearly?

Tomorrow, greasy chinese food and confidences traded back and forth over hazelnut with room for soy milk and french press. tomorrow, wonderful like all the rest. I have gotten accustomed to spending my days with you and with so many without you up ahead of me, I am scared but hopeful. I am sad, but content knowing that there is nothing that could ever make your presence in my life disappear, nothing that could make you not a part of my life, no one who could be what you are to me, and nobody who could hold such promise as you... no soul out there whose presence makes my body swell with ardent love... with the desire to be close to you.

I say this now with the thought of India ever present on my mind. I say this knowing that you will understand .. that you will feel the understanding of my emotions. That you will have to accept how i see you... as a giving, beautiful, calming, warm man whom I am fortunate to know and glad to care for.